Living Alone With Anxiety

This morning, Facebook kindly reminded me that two years ago today I moved into my very own home. At this exact time two years ago, as I write this, I was in a Premier Inn in Glasgow getting ready to take my fiance to my very first concert which was Ben Howard. To this day, it is still the only concert I have been to. Something for the bucket list, I guess.

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Since then, things have changed. I’m not sure how many of you know this but I currently stay alone. It has its positives and negatives, but then, what doesn’t?! The things I thought I would hate about staying alone I actually quite like; and vice versa. I thought I would share my experience of living alone, for just over a year, as a young person with anxiety. (Does 19 make me a young person? Or simply an adult that is pretending to be a teenager?)

 
Anyway, I have managed to keep myself alive for over a year and I think that is an achievement in its self. I don’t have the most amazing diet, my house isn’t as clean or decorated as nicely as it could be. Nonetheless, I am alive and breathing for yet another blog post.

 
I would say that living alone has greatly helped my anxiety. I have my own safe place that is 100% mine (so long as I continue to pay rent) and the only people that can enter this safe place is people I welcome into it. If I’ve had a day full of social interaction that has required one too many breathing exercises then I can come home and just breathe. A deep satisfying breath of cherry vanilla that allows me to know I am home safe and sound for another night. Likewise, if I’ve been spending a little too much time at home and the same four walls are slowly creeping further in I can lock the door and run away. I can go on a walk or to a friend’s house.

 
I much prefer to go out and meet people rather than inviting them over. This may be due to anxiety. This may be due to the image I have in my head of a beautifully decorated flat which my own does not live up to. Don’t get me wrong, the decoration could be far worse. I simply just haven’t gotten it exactly as I would like as time is never on my side, especially with all this running in and out of doors, and I change my mind a whole lot.
I would love to hear the experiences of other people living alone with anxiety, leave a comment below or reach out to me on twitter.

 

If you have any questions about living alone, including advice, then I would love to help out.

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9 thoughts on “Living Alone With Anxiety

  1. ly says:

    I have PTSD & all the usual depression & anxiety that comes with it. I love living alone. I think I would regardless of my mental health as have always been comfortable in my own company & liked my own space. I would agree, though, that there are definite benefits for anxiety sufferers. It is so nice to close your front door & just breathe knowing there will be no demands made on you.

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  2. Dianne says:

    This is a great update. I don’t know what it’s like to live alone since I still live with my parents. However, I really enjoyed how you described your place, how it’s your own. I occasionally get anxiety around people and need my own space, thus when I resort to my bedroom. I’m glad you’re doing well.

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    1. anamywhowrites says:

      Thank you Dianne, I’m glad you enjoyed this post. I had this post scheduled for May as it is Mental Health awareness month. However, as I mentioned in the post, Facebook made me aware that it was two years today I got my own place so felt it appropriate to bring the date forward! I’m glad you are able to resort to somewhere that can give you the head space you need x

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  3. Maitreyi says:

    I don’t live alone but I have a terrible anxiety… it really bugs me because I can’t sleep & then the next day I Don’t even feel refreshed… I’m still trying.. hats off to you for being alone with your anxiety. It can become quite painful… I’m there with you! Stay strong 😊

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    1. anamywhowrites says:

      Thank you for this wonderful comment! If you are ever having a bad day and need advice or even just a chat about what you’re having for tea then I am here for you to talk to whether it be on twitter or another form of social media. I hope that you start to get some sleep soon, are you able to nap during the day at all? x

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      1. Maitreyi says:

        Thank you so much for your kind reply. I do feel sleepy during the day but I can’t because I have to study for my exams too… 😭
        And when night comes, I can’t get myself to sleep… I’m only sleeping for 4-5hrs for some days.. but I’m trying

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      2. anamywhowrites says:

        Keep trying, love. Studying for exams can be stressful and it is definitely important. However, if you are not getting enough sleep then your studying is likely taking you longer than necessary and that nap could really benefit you! Be sure to keep me updated x

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